As this is right now. Im having problems at home. With my mom and my brother. My grandmother is sick of cancer and is prolly gonna die next month. Theres a shitload of tests in school currently. Alot of my friends have dumped me. I dont have anyone to talk to except my dad but he works alot and dont got any time currently.
So this all started with my grandmother being sick. My mom has to help her and take care of her so she spends alotta time with her. When she comes home she will get mad at me for no reason, like example i havent done the disches eventho ive planned to do so later. My brother is supposted to help me out but everytime i tell him to come help me he always tells me to Stfu and leave so i have to do everything by myself.
So with my doing all that crap, having to study, and my mom yelling at me regardless i get sad. It has been like this for a long time (Not with my grandma she got diagnosed about a month ago) but with my brother. And its really tearing me appart.
I just feel so alone, that im alone with everything. No one cares about me and my interests it feels like i have to care about everyone else. When i was younger i also got told not to cry about so many things. And now my mom yells at me for not showing emotion either. Its just a freakin hellhole and i want out. I cant take it...
Im also freakin depressed about my grandmother, i think alot about her. And i just feel like aswell that if life is going to end. Why the hell bother making so much outta it. All that hard work wasted..
And with no one to talk to everything just get held up inside making me to the one i am now.
I have thought about going here for a while and now i have..
PS : Sorry for my bad language and grammar. I just couldent be bothered with those things right now..
So this all started with my grandmother being sick. My mom has to help her and take care of her so she spends alotta time with her. When she comes home she will get mad at me for no reason, like example i havent done the disches eventho ive planned to do so later. My brother is supposted to help me out but everytime i tell him to come help me he always tells me to Stfu and leave so i have to do everything by myself.
So with my doing all that crap, having to study, and my mom yelling at me regardless i get sad. It has been like this for a long time (Not with my grandma she got diagnosed about a month ago) but with my brother. And its really tearing me appart.
I just feel so alone, that im alone with everything. No one cares about me and my interests it feels like i have to care about everyone else. When i was younger i also got told not to cry about so many things. And now my mom yells at me for not showing emotion either. Its just a freakin hellhole and i want out. I cant take it...
Im also freakin depressed about my grandmother, i think alot about her. And i just feel like aswell that if life is going to end. Why the hell bother making so much outta it. All that hard work wasted..
And with no one to talk to everything just get held up inside making me to the one i am now.
I have thought about going here for a while and now i have..
PS : Sorry for my bad language and grammar. I just couldent be bothered with those things right now..