02-28-2016, 06:40 PM
Traditionally and ideally, a family is meant to be filled with love and adoration. Love, an intense feeling of deep affection,(Yes I googled the definition). However, as I look at my family I can't help but notice how empty I feel. For example, my baby brother no longer brings a sense of euphoria I usually get when I hold him. Or when a relative says "I love you", I always respond back with a "I love you too" without a second thought on whether that statement is true or not.
I can't help but wonder if I'm turning into a sociopath, or if most people feel the same way I do. Of course, I've felt love before. My late father, at one point my grandmothers, and so on. But now, when I look at them I feel nothing. Just emptiness being filled by thoughts. The same goes for my friends I suppose. It's just so easy to be wrapped up in other's joy, but when alone I'm like a rock. A lying, possibly sociopathic rock.
I guess the point of this post is to receive help(?). I put a question mark because I honestly do not know what type of help I need.
I can't help but wonder if I'm turning into a sociopath, or if most people feel the same way I do. Of course, I've felt love before. My late father, at one point my grandmothers, and so on. But now, when I look at them I feel nothing. Just emptiness being filled by thoughts. The same goes for my friends I suppose. It's just so easy to be wrapped up in other's joy, but when alone I'm like a rock. A lying, possibly sociopathic rock.
I guess the point of this post is to receive help(?). I put a question mark because I honestly do not know what type of help I need.