06-28-2014, 06:59 PM
This may not be where this belongs. I don't know.
Over the time I've come to know you guys as a second family of sorts. I don't have the best homelife (mind you, it's not the worst either) and you're always here when I need you to be.
I don't know what kind of person I try to be on here (hopefully myself), but I've never really talked about my problems. I feel selfish talking about my problems, when there are literally children in Africa starving to death.
Do you ever get this feeling.. no matter how tough or cool you act like where you just.. everything becomes too much? Even if it's little things. They just pile on higher and higher. I don't know.
I feel like I want to complain and be a little b**** about it, though I know it doesn't help anything. Wallowing in self-remorse and pity won't help much anything either, but yet today I cried like a little girl. I just..
The worst part is nothing in my life right now is overwhelming. I've dealt with 100x worse than what I'm dealing with now, but I just feel so helpless. So.. alone. And I know I shouldn't! I have a loving family, and I have lots of friends. I have you guys, and people I hang out with all the time, and my parents and grandparents are all there. I could blame this all on my father, but what good would that do? Absolutely none. The only reason I feel this way is because of some girl I barely know. Well, besides an absurd amount of internet related stress due to the fact I seem incapable of hiring anything who has any sort of basic knowledge on the projects I work on.
I met this girl on the internet (don't ask how.. long story) and we get along great. We've never fought, or had any disagreements, and she's perfect. That's the problem. She lives in California (I live in Virginia). This doesn't make most people.. have problems, I guess. But.. I'm jealous. Of everyone. Everything. Her cousins, her uncles, every person that accidentally brushes past her, or just glimpses at her. I got jealous of her f****** cats! Do you know how stupid that is?!
And don't tell me "Oh, this is what love feels like." I know damn too well I'm too young to be in love currently.
Which brings me to another point. Age. While our relationship would be completely legal, she is 2 years younger than me (shoot me) which makes me uncomfortable. I was raised in a family where the line was drawn at about 2 years (more or less).
I really don't know what to do. It's not only this, but that's the major problem I'm having. I don't want to be like.. OMG I'm in loveesszzzz because I haven't known her for that long. But I just.. I can't explain it.
Again, I'm really sorry is this is in the wrong place, and I'm sorry for dragging you along with this. I just.. I've hit that point. I needed to talk about something, and.. my family isn't the BEST listeners in the world. No, I'm not asking for "comfort" or "advice" (though the later would be useful). I just need to vent, and talk.
Go ahead, call me weak, call me a baby. I don't care.
Over the time I've come to know you guys as a second family of sorts. I don't have the best homelife (mind you, it's not the worst either) and you're always here when I need you to be.
I don't know what kind of person I try to be on here (hopefully myself), but I've never really talked about my problems. I feel selfish talking about my problems, when there are literally children in Africa starving to death.
Do you ever get this feeling.. no matter how tough or cool you act like where you just.. everything becomes too much? Even if it's little things. They just pile on higher and higher. I don't know.
I feel like I want to complain and be a little b**** about it, though I know it doesn't help anything. Wallowing in self-remorse and pity won't help much anything either, but yet today I cried like a little girl. I just..
The worst part is nothing in my life right now is overwhelming. I've dealt with 100x worse than what I'm dealing with now, but I just feel so helpless. So.. alone. And I know I shouldn't! I have a loving family, and I have lots of friends. I have you guys, and people I hang out with all the time, and my parents and grandparents are all there. I could blame this all on my father, but what good would that do? Absolutely none. The only reason I feel this way is because of some girl I barely know. Well, besides an absurd amount of internet related stress due to the fact I seem incapable of hiring anything who has any sort of basic knowledge on the projects I work on.
I met this girl on the internet (don't ask how.. long story) and we get along great. We've never fought, or had any disagreements, and she's perfect. That's the problem. She lives in California (I live in Virginia). This doesn't make most people.. have problems, I guess. But.. I'm jealous. Of everyone. Everything. Her cousins, her uncles, every person that accidentally brushes past her, or just glimpses at her. I got jealous of her f****** cats! Do you know how stupid that is?!
And don't tell me "Oh, this is what love feels like." I know damn too well I'm too young to be in love currently.
Which brings me to another point. Age. While our relationship would be completely legal, she is 2 years younger than me (shoot me) which makes me uncomfortable. I was raised in a family where the line was drawn at about 2 years (more or less).
I really don't know what to do. It's not only this, but that's the major problem I'm having. I don't want to be like.. OMG I'm in loveesszzzz because I haven't known her for that long. But I just.. I can't explain it.
Again, I'm really sorry is this is in the wrong place, and I'm sorry for dragging you along with this. I just.. I've hit that point. I needed to talk about something, and.. my family isn't the BEST listeners in the world. No, I'm not asking for "comfort" or "advice" (though the later would be useful). I just need to vent, and talk.
Go ahead, call me weak, call me a baby. I don't care.