So I'm seventeen, and I'm having alot of problems with being happy or positive about anything.
I hate myself, who I am and things like that. I feel stupid/dumb all the time, I don't do good in school and I just never feel smart. Especially compared to my brother and sister.
I am still not over my ex-girlfriend who broke up with me over a year ago. She was also my best friend for three years before we started dating, then she broke up with me for some different kid who's better than me and stopped talking to me. Sometimes I'll text her just to see how she's doing and stuff, then today she texted me back with a reply that read "don't txt me f*g". And that made me feel really stupid. I don't know why.
But almost every other night I cry. Not knowing what to do about myself. And some days I'm scared to drive myself to school because sometimes I'll think about what would happen if I crashed my car and yeah.
I'm sick of feeling like this and I want to be happy. but I don't know what to do. I've been sad for years before this. But it keeps getting worse.
My parents are unaware of any of this. I'm afraid to tell them about any of this. I fear that I will be more of a problem to them. I think this because before they once told me that out of the three children they have I'm the one with the most problems and stuff.
I don't know what I should do.
I hate myself, who I am and things like that. I feel stupid/dumb all the time, I don't do good in school and I just never feel smart. Especially compared to my brother and sister.
I am still not over my ex-girlfriend who broke up with me over a year ago. She was also my best friend for three years before we started dating, then she broke up with me for some different kid who's better than me and stopped talking to me. Sometimes I'll text her just to see how she's doing and stuff, then today she texted me back with a reply that read "don't txt me f*g". And that made me feel really stupid. I don't know why.
But almost every other night I cry. Not knowing what to do about myself. And some days I'm scared to drive myself to school because sometimes I'll think about what would happen if I crashed my car and yeah.
I'm sick of feeling like this and I want to be happy. but I don't know what to do. I've been sad for years before this. But it keeps getting worse.
My parents are unaware of any of this. I'm afraid to tell them about any of this. I fear that I will be more of a problem to them. I think this because before they once told me that out of the three children they have I'm the one with the most problems and stuff.
I don't know what I should do.