09-01-2013, 10:07 PM
Hello, my name is Brian. I may be a bit older than some of the posters here I think... I am a 25 y/o male. But still I have issues I am dealing with as well and trying to figure out ways to get back to enjoying life...
Before I go further I just want to say I completely acknowledge some of the things I mention below that are causing me problems are due to my own stupid actions and I realize and accept that.. But please if you have nothing constructive to say please don't flame me...
I guess I will start with a little background. Back in High School I was one of the nerdy kids, never popular. I had very few friends, and only had a couple short relationships. Summer after I started dating this one girl, and it was the most amazing time of my life (between HS grad and college start), I've never matched that happiness since then. We did that long distance thing for entirety of college, some periods on and off where we always came back to each other.. We always visited every 2 weeks for a weekend until she moved in with me while I finished my masters, then we moved to San Diego after I was done. Things began going south a year after, I have an amazing job here where I was supporting both of us with a good quality of life but I was gone on travel about half the year. Basically we drifted apart.
After second year in SD she called it off and moved home with family. I was devastated. I didnt know what to do with myself. I fell into the wrong crowd and began acting like a reckless fool. I was newly single, excess of money from good job, just going out partying all the time. One night I screwed up really really really bad, and got busted for a dui. Stupidest mistake I have ever made. It took me a full year to deal with with all of it, basicallly after that I was just living day-to-day. I mean, I was also doing that before the breakup but it just made it worse.
I pretty much lost all my sense of self confidence and goodness as a person after that. I'll shorten the story here but for a good amount of time I felt like crap. I am super shy so its been hard for me to get back into the dating game i guess.
I have been suffering from a number of struggles since then (and some from before).. In general I'm just shy and have a hard time meeting new people and dating. Second, I still have some emotionional issues due to events I mentioned above. I tell myself I just need to get over crap but its not working for me.
I'm looking forward to any help you can provide...
Before I go further I just want to say I completely acknowledge some of the things I mention below that are causing me problems are due to my own stupid actions and I realize and accept that.. But please if you have nothing constructive to say please don't flame me...
I guess I will start with a little background. Back in High School I was one of the nerdy kids, never popular. I had very few friends, and only had a couple short relationships. Summer after I started dating this one girl, and it was the most amazing time of my life (between HS grad and college start), I've never matched that happiness since then. We did that long distance thing for entirety of college, some periods on and off where we always came back to each other.. We always visited every 2 weeks for a weekend until she moved in with me while I finished my masters, then we moved to San Diego after I was done. Things began going south a year after, I have an amazing job here where I was supporting both of us with a good quality of life but I was gone on travel about half the year. Basically we drifted apart.
After second year in SD she called it off and moved home with family. I was devastated. I didnt know what to do with myself. I fell into the wrong crowd and began acting like a reckless fool. I was newly single, excess of money from good job, just going out partying all the time. One night I screwed up really really really bad, and got busted for a dui. Stupidest mistake I have ever made. It took me a full year to deal with with all of it, basicallly after that I was just living day-to-day. I mean, I was also doing that before the breakup but it just made it worse.
I pretty much lost all my sense of self confidence and goodness as a person after that. I'll shorten the story here but for a good amount of time I felt like crap. I am super shy so its been hard for me to get back into the dating game i guess.
I have been suffering from a number of struggles since then (and some from before).. In general I'm just shy and have a hard time meeting new people and dating. Second, I still have some emotionional issues due to events I mentioned above. I tell myself I just need to get over crap but its not working for me.
I'm looking forward to any help you can provide...