My Thoughts

[Lukas]

Alright, this is just my thoughts, and I don't expect anyone to read it, nor care about it. I just feel like writing this down somewhere, as writing clears my head, and helps me to think.

Well, in grade 6, (I'm in Grade 9 now, in Canada, so still Junior High), my family moved to the opposite side of the city, and I had to change schools. I went from being the popular kid, to the kid no one cared about, nor paid any attention to. This hit me hard, as I expected it to be easy, but being the richest kid in my school didn't help at all. Everyone gave me a hard time about it.

So I lived with that a while, then I decided I wanted to be popular again. This was in grade 8. So I started on my way, and I finally got there, halfway through grade 9, which has helped me a lot.

Now, one thing that has not helped me at home in the slightest bit is my parents. On June 1st, 2009, they decided to seperate which was a blow to me, as I overheard them one night talking, and they seemed perfectly happy together. This was super hard for me, as both of my brothers were looking up to me in this event, so I felt I had to set the bar high, and I've showed no emotion throughout this whole event.

Now, I'm finally were I want to be at school, and I know what I want to do with my life, but, I'm only 14, and I need to be 17 or 18 to do what I want, and done highschool, which is making me mad, because I hate being my age as I feel I am more mature then people my age. My life seems to be so damn boring as I'm not on any teams, nor do I do much, though I'm quite skinny. I don't know what do do with my time, I'm just on the computer, though it bores me. I'm not sure what to do with my time to make my life seem fun, and as if it's moving.

At school though, there are these two kids who I might just beat up, because they annoying me about being the richest kid, and they used to be my friends until I found out that they were kind of using me for money...
There is also this girl I like, and she likes me, but my mom says I'm not allowed to date, so I'm not sure what I should do..

I have what I want to do all set out, just life seems to be taking so fucking long, and moves like a snail. I just can't wait to be 17 or 18. My brothers both play high-level hockey, and if I were to join the one thing I love more than anything, a ski team, it would be too hard for my parents, so I can't really.

I just want to be 17 or 18, not 14. I want to get along with my life, not site here like I feel like I'm doing. I want to move closer to the mountains for the lifestyle I want, not stuck in a boring, big city like I am.

These are just my thoughts,

Lukas