So there's this guy...

[Into the Wild]

Okay.. i really need some help right now. A few months ago, in November i met this guy. Let's call him, Twix. ( code name me and my friends call him.) so anyways, last year i was new in this town and it was my first year in school there. ( im in 8th grade now. ) so i knew who he was but we really didn't talk.. the only time we did was when me and my old crush talked on the phone and twix was there too. ( they were best friends) anyways, me and twix started talking in November. i developed some feelings for him and told him i liked him in December. and a few days later after i told him, i asked him who he liked. he said me. i was shocked, but unfortunately i believed him. worst mistake. ( ill get to the reason why later.) so we ended up talking from when we both got home from school until like 7 or so. we started to gain a lot of trust in each other. By January, i really liked him. we had some fights but they were small ones. So, he said all these nice things to me, and sweet things and i just fell in love with him. i know its hard to believe but i did. we always used to give high 5's before one of our classes (: haha but he told me a while later that he lied about liking me, and he likes my BEST FRIEND. i cried. he really hurt me. i didnt stop talking to him though. i just let it go. he started talking to his other girl. lets call her maya. ive talked to maya before and she was a really nice girl. she was smart too. he started talking to her a lot more.. and he stopped texting me for a while and i would text him first to start a convo, but i felt i was too clingy. i talked to him about it and he said that he thought he was being too clingy. not at all.. haha. but anyway, he told me that he was starting to like Maya. there went the tears again. i was so sad. i thought he was trying to hurt me or something. so the weeks went on, he talked with her. i was sad all the time. i had sosososo many feelings for him. and then we started hugging at recess, he gives the best hugs. like THE BEST. his smile is perfect, he's just perfect. but, like i said before we trusted each other with everything. and he started to not tell me everything.. i wondered what was going on. so i talked to him and he said he trusts Maya more now. the broke me, AGAIN.by now i was pretty pissed. so he told me he started to really really like Maya. sad again. so they ended up dating, and then she broke up with him. she didn't feel anything with him. i was happy in a way, but then again not. so he started to move on from her cause he knew it wouldn't happen again. i got happy again. and then he told me he started to like my best friend again. sad again. and then he erased his memory of liking her. don't know how but he did. i was happy again.he started to like me. BEYOND HAPPY I WAS! i was thinking, yes! finally! he likes me!! wooooot! and we started talking from like home from school to at least 1130 every night. it was perfect. he was perfect. and then he was diagnosed with something. he didn't tell me. but we both kinda basically asked each other out one day in march. march 17th to be exact. and we dated, had a great week and then that Saturday, a week afterwards, he sent me a long text explaining to me what he was diagnosed with. and how he might fall out of love with me and have feelings for someone else. that Saturday night, he dumped me. he told me he had feelings for Maya now again and none for me. i spent 17 hours crying, and i puked 2 times from crying. we got into a fight. he barely said he was sorry. but he broke my heart. honestly. and later on i told him i would move on from him and that i already am. he didn't tell me anything anymore.. it was awkward and i thought we would never be friends like we were before. i felt like he was the brother Ive always wanted. so we started talking a bit more. we decided that every night we would have feeling talks.. basically we just talk about what we're feeling. he felt bad about dumping me, but he has complete feelings for Maya now. ive been sad, mad, upset, somewhat depressed ever since we broke up.. he actually really hurt me. and all he talks about her constantly..its so tough on me. and i cant focus in school anymore, i have a D- in ela, a C in social studies. those were both B+'s before the breakup. i know i sound obsessive but im not. im just in shock. i just feel like i can trust him. he makes me the happiest girl alive. i never want to move on from him. i never wanna let him go. he's just completely perfect in my mind. im dying inside and he doesn't realize how much he hurt me. i cant take it. if you have any advice, please help.