06-08-2011, 06:25 PM
Thank you both for taking the time to read my situation and offer advice.
Mute, some of what you said is definitely true. At my age I do believe it's harder to be single when I had expectations of being with that person forever. We were engaged and planning a family.
He does know my feelings. We are still in contact.. far too often actually. He tells me sometimes he still loves me but because we will never be together again, that does not help the situation. It makes it worse. I know that cutting off communication with him completely could help alot. But even when we go weeks or months without speaking, I'm still in this place of utter despair. Turning to him for comfort makes things more difficult as it reopens the wounds once its clear we arent going to be together again. The rejection is refreshed and the hurt even deeper.
It doesn't feel like there is anyone out there I can ever be that comfortable with again. I know I'm sounding very cliche here, but I just feel broken, damaged, and incapable of finding someone who can both accept my past baggage, but also is emotionally stable and healthy themselves.
Mute, some of what you said is definitely true. At my age I do believe it's harder to be single when I had expectations of being with that person forever. We were engaged and planning a family.
He does know my feelings. We are still in contact.. far too often actually. He tells me sometimes he still loves me but because we will never be together again, that does not help the situation. It makes it worse. I know that cutting off communication with him completely could help alot. But even when we go weeks or months without speaking, I'm still in this place of utter despair. Turning to him for comfort makes things more difficult as it reopens the wounds once its clear we arent going to be together again. The rejection is refreshed and the hurt even deeper.
It doesn't feel like there is anyone out there I can ever be that comfortable with again. I know I'm sounding very cliche here, but I just feel broken, damaged, and incapable of finding someone who can both accept my past baggage, but also is emotionally stable and healthy themselves.