Breaking up for the second and last time

[Impurity]

If it was an abusive releationship, count your blessing. While there is no doubt in my mind that he may have cared for you, if he was emotionally or physically abusive then nothings worth that. What you're going through is normal. Everyone goes through a grieving period where they miss the company. I'm sure you'll be able to find another guy to date. Take the time you need, and open up to friends. Keeping feelings or thoughts locked inside will only cause more pain.