One of these things there really have helped me is to staying positive, and going for long walks and think about all tha good things.
It sounds like you had a hard time growing up! glad you failed suicide and are enjoying life
Suicide is the best thing to fail doing cause if you did do it right you would miss out on so much.
As people have stated, you should not suicide due to problems. Life has problems, you should work towards goals. Taking your life away isn't the reason your here.