06-19-2011, 09:32 PM
(06-19-2011, 03:05 PM)Brandenx781 Wrote: This is simple. You still had feelings for her. You guys shared memories by talking with each other and playing with each other on the team. The reason why you're so fixed on the situation is because that you couldn't tell her your feelings in time. Because of this, you lost your chance to have her as a girlfriend, and you're angry at yourself because of that. You wanted her to be with you, but you just couldn't tell her so you missed the opprotunity.
You are now just mad at yourself because the girl that you liked will never now how you felt, and that emotion is still inside you. Your feelings will never come out of you and will be forever stuck in your body, because of that one chance. You're still mad, because you lost out on the chance. You're still mad, because of your mind thinking that it was going to be awkward with her brother and his girlfriend. You're still mad, because now she will never know how you actually felt about her, and your feelings will never be said.
Yeah I know its just gonna sort of well up inside me until I will myself to move on, but honestly I think whatever struck me so strongly was just sort of a flash in the pan that caused temporary pain and remembering...I think its gonna continue doing that until I accept it and move on and I'll just have to deal with it as well as I can. Thanks and I appreciate all the feedback I've received from this.