Ex hates me a lot now, not sure what to do.

[nightfly]

Well said DAMINIK, i agree 100%, , just want to add one last sentence ! KELSE, you need to reshape your entire existence here, get real, look toward your future, stop playing around with your's and other's emotions ! And most of all, you are mating an alcoholic ?! look, take it from someone who has been there , Alcoholics are alcoholics for LIFE, rehab no rehab, they will stay like that for life and as a doctor told me once about my own situation :" alcoholic ppl are no different from drug addicts,you stand between them and their primary need, you become the N1 enemy" !! and he was right.
Good luck KELSE.