Help me chill (Caution Vulger Language)

[Dcrac23]

So most of you know I have really bad anger issues, Even the smallest crap gets to me. I'm tired of breaking my fingers or cutting them up b/c I beat the crap outta the last person that said something to me. I used to be on steroids, But I have been off of them for about 2 weeks now. Still feeling a bit nervous and Ancy a bit. I am not a drinker I will have one on occasion. My Boss is a dick constantly pisses me off and I constantly want to spear him through a wall. That's part of my anxiety and stress and the fact He expects alot out of me b/c I am a Dr.'s Son. The guy Constantly Rags on me for the stupidest crap. Such as for instance I have I.B.S. I carry a bottle of immodium's around with me and he made fun of me in front of some co workers. Pissed me off my face got Red and I wanted to beat the absolute crap out of him. But I Just held my anger in the rest of the day and then took it all out on the next person. He's not a easy person to talk to either so I can't just be like look I'm gonna need you to stop making fun of me. He favors Female's over Males all the time or at least that's how I see things. I have been to many Dr.'s about my Anger even tried Anger Management, Seriously if I can't get my anger under control or release it I think I will end up severely Hurting someone I care for. I used to work out every single day or every other day to relieve some stress and anger but I end up hurting myself to where I get more pissed off. I mean damn dude what Am I supposed to do? I try and get along with almost everyone but I can only take so much before I just break. I'm at a loss I don't know what the fudge to do anymore I get so angry now so quick it's not even funny anymore. My head starts hurting I end up blacking out and doing something I shouldn't or break something or punch holes in my walls or something along those lines. I black out during fights and end up really hurting people. I took up MMA Training and fighting but I don't think it's helping me much either. I'm tired of being a constant butthead to people I just don't know what the hell to do anymore. NEKOCHAN DON'T EVEN BOTHER POSTING!! I just don't understand anymore. I never used to be this way I used have a attitude back in the day but hell who didn't? I would appreciate some advice from you guys.