09-18-2014, 08:00 PM
I hope your situation has improved since this post was created! The people who responded made serval great points.
I just wanted to add the small additional reminder that we all bare scares on an emotional level. Most of us mere mortals have experienced hurt, sadness, grief, or betrayal at some point in our past. Some of us have endured more pain and struggling than others, but the result is typically the same - toxic reoccurring thoughts of "what if.. I should have.. I'm this way because that's how I was back then." It's not easy to forget the past, but when you do you're met with the greatest sense of freedom you could ever imagine. Shutting off the past, as if locked behind a steel wall, creates a space which allows you focus on the present. Where you are in life right **Now** Not where you used to be, or thinking about where you could be. But right this very instant. You can only step from where your standing. Put the past behind you, take it one day at a time, be nice to yourself, and remember -- You are not your past.
I just wanted to add the small additional reminder that we all bare scares on an emotional level. Most of us mere mortals have experienced hurt, sadness, grief, or betrayal at some point in our past. Some of us have endured more pain and struggling than others, but the result is typically the same - toxic reoccurring thoughts of "what if.. I should have.. I'm this way because that's how I was back then." It's not easy to forget the past, but when you do you're met with the greatest sense of freedom you could ever imagine. Shutting off the past, as if locked behind a steel wall, creates a space which allows you focus on the present. Where you are in life right **Now** Not where you used to be, or thinking about where you could be. But right this very instant. You can only step from where your standing. Put the past behind you, take it one day at a time, be nice to yourself, and remember -- You are not your past.