03-13-2011, 12:54 PM
(03-13-2011, 12:48 PM)-paradox- Wrote: I highly doubt you're over it, I feel like you haven't even gotten around to it yet. Almost like it's being avoided. I mean, it's wrong of me to make assumptions of me on a forum because I don't know you or your life. I can't read your emotions through text or anything like that so I may be off. More often than not though, death of a close relative doesn't go without emotional burden. You might be saying you're getting over it or that it doesn't effect you because of denial? You may know that it's effecting you but going on the forums and saying you're doing great might be your way of trying to lie to yourself? Or you really might be alright with this.
There isn't really a way for us to know but remember to open up to your family as well. Don't tell them it's not effecting you if it isn't. If the thought ever crosses your mind however, that you may be bottling this up or avoiding it. That's what you should tell your family. Your happiness is what should matter most to you now, not what your Grandmother would want.
If you want to get over it, you have to face it first. You can't get over something you're going around.
Im not really trying to hide it or anything. Im not denying that she's gone, i realize that she's dead, and won't be back, ever.
Im quite sure that im alright with it. I thought it was weird even yesterday when i didn't feel anything at all. It was like she was still there, it's crazy i know. But it still feels like that. Like she'd be with me.
Though my family has always been a bit weird when it comes to dead people.