05-18-2012, 08:26 PM
If you are a tl;dr hurrdurr poster than fuckoff.
So. This will all begin in grade seven. I was thirteen and I started talking to a girl named Courteney, Not very important but she was a grade higher than me, We had started dating after five months of
talking to each other. We were both so full of crap and drama back then so we broke up do to just stupid crap. Her friend "Hanah" had called my cell phone and read me off due to "breaking Courteney's
heart". Now let's skip a year. (since nothing important happened in that year) In grade nine, I had started talking to Courteney again. It was Halloween and she had her friend Hanah with her. I
started talking to her friend Hanah and we were smoking weed and popping oxy contin so we were fudged up, but we apparently made out and we started dating the next day. Now here's where it
gets complicated. She started mentioning a old friend named "Alex" and they were so good friends and crap. They were going to a party and stuff, I had caught him telling her they were gonna have
sex and crap. So I asked her about it and she denied everything. She said he did say it to her but she'd ignore him. I started paying more attention and I got a hold of her phone one day. (Yes I know
it's a crap thing to do but I wanted to know) She had said they were going to have sex and such and I confronted her. She finally broke down and admitted. I shrugged it off. The party came and went
apparently nothing happened. Now it is mid-December and a kid from school, major skater jerk, decided to start talking to her. Started freakin with her head and she was falling for it. He got between
me and her so easily that she ended asking for an "open relationship" I admit I should have realized if this happened so easily than it shouldn't have happened overall from the beginning. So she break
up with me ON CHRISTMAS DAY. She said it wasn't such a big deal. She starts talking to this guy more. Me and him fought, I broke his jaw and three of his ribs and he sprained my wrist and gave me a
concussion. Now they weren't talking and me and her were just "Hi bye" type of people. JUST TO SAY THIS. She was completely against homosexuality and bisexuality, but she started talking to one of
my ex-girlfriends who was bisexual. I decided I was going to give her roses on new-years. But as I gave her to them she said no that she is with someone. I checked face book and her and my ex are
together. So now they are rubbing it in my face that they were together. It is now January 3rd. We go back to school and they broke up. Yes only three days. They blamed their breakup on me. Both of
them were screaming at me and such. May I also add that from grade five I had been psychologically bullied. People saying that I am worthless and I need to kill myself. I had resorted to self-harm and
drugs for three years. (From grade six to grade nine). So the combination of those girls screaming at me, the loss of her on Christmas day, people telling me to kill myself. I had decided I wanted to die.
So on the night of January 5th, I had taken an entire bottle of Tylenol extra strength 500mg. It was so much that I would have died within an hour of taking them. She (Hanah) was the one that saved
my life by telling my parents I had taken them. I told her that I had taken them and I was done. So I was rushed to the hospital and I was in Suicide-Watch for seventy-two hours while being
DE-intoxicated per-say. After thus I was moved to a rehabilitation center for three months. I had gotten out of the hospital after not having any contact with the outside for those three months. I had
come back and I called her immediately. To find she had moved on. She had sex with about 6 guys while I was gone not including my ex-girlfriend. So I had decided to say forget it. So an entire year
had passed. We started talking about and all she had for me was complete lies and drama. Now I am nineteen. Me and her have just came back into contact. I feel as though she might have changed,
but I am extremely afraid to be in contact with her again in the first place. What should I do? Whoever has read this entire thing. Thank you for being HQ enough to read the entire post. Sorry for such
the rant I just need to know what people suggest.
So me and that girl decided to date a little bit. She became very weird about a week after we started dating. Like for example before hand when we first started dating she would text me with a
crap load of smiles and would be so excited to talk to me. After that she hardly ever texted me and hardly told me she liked me. Now when it came up to Easter the night before she said she could
hang out with me. Then after work she said she didn't have gas to come over. Then I said I will pick her up. She said no matter what she will not let me pick her up. Then she said she had to work 6
days a week and she's so tired. So she wanted to sleep. Then about two days later she accidentally told me she went to her friends house that night. So I flipped crap and asked her mother
when she went over to her friends. Her mother said she went right after work. I once again flipped crap and cussed up a storm to her and she kept saying she wanted a break. So on FB I turned my relationship status to single. She called me at 12AM that night and
said what the fudge why did you change your relation status to single, I told her because you wanted a break. And she said she didn't mean it. The next day she asked if I wanted to go see a movie with her and I told her no I couldn't cause I was fixing my
mums car (pistons 4 and 6 aren't firing right and I can't figure out why) and she said OK, almost as if she was fine with it. Then I told her I loved her. She said "OK that's cool" and then she said "I want a break" I flipped crap again and told her she is hurting me way to
much to have a relationship right now. I'm one of those guys that is extremely emotional and I get attached to girls. I love this girl with all my heart and I cannot seem to let her go. I texted her yesterday
and asked if we will ever get back together and she said most likely but not right now. What do I do? I can't just drop her. I love her so much.
So then I checked her facebook and she said "when I'm with him I feel like I'm perfect" and I know that isn't me. She texted me and we got into a huge fight about how she crushed me. I miss her so much, what do I do?
Me and my cousin got into a huge fight. He just recently came out of the closet, but before that we would always TRY to hang out. He would always cancel and make excuses
well the other day we got into an argument and I told him I didn't consider him as a cousin. He just left for the Navy today and I feel terrible. I don't know where he is right now
so I can't write to him and I don't know what to say to him.
I had dropped out of school and my sister is a manipulative bitch, other day we got into an argument as well and she made a comment "At least I have friends and go to school!",
I've been extremely lonely and I want a girlfriend or at least friends. I suffer from severe depression and I am extremely anti-social. I don't want to get out because I'm afraid I
won't get accepted. That is one of the biggest fears that I have actually is getting accepted into the community after being bullied for so long. I've resorted to self mutilation
again. Most of the things that have gotten me away from the depression is the computer and HackForums. I've recently been banned and repfucked from HackForums and my
doctor said I need to stop getting on the computer because I am hiding from my problems. He made a very good point saying that the computer is the easiest way to cope with
depression and bullying, because if there is someone I don't like I can just block them or ignore them whereas in real life I need to deal with it. I'm seriously contemplating suicide
again. I feel as though it is the right thing to do right now, I don't feel a place for me on this earth..
So. This will all begin in grade seven. I was thirteen and I started talking to a girl named Courteney, Not very important but she was a grade higher than me, We had started dating after five months of
talking to each other. We were both so full of crap and drama back then so we broke up do to just stupid crap. Her friend "Hanah" had called my cell phone and read me off due to "breaking Courteney's
heart". Now let's skip a year. (since nothing important happened in that year) In grade nine, I had started talking to Courteney again. It was Halloween and she had her friend Hanah with her. I
started talking to her friend Hanah and we were smoking weed and popping oxy contin so we were fudged up, but we apparently made out and we started dating the next day. Now here's where it
gets complicated. She started mentioning a old friend named "Alex" and they were so good friends and crap. They were going to a party and stuff, I had caught him telling her they were gonna have
sex and crap. So I asked her about it and she denied everything. She said he did say it to her but she'd ignore him. I started paying more attention and I got a hold of her phone one day. (Yes I know
it's a crap thing to do but I wanted to know) She had said they were going to have sex and such and I confronted her. She finally broke down and admitted. I shrugged it off. The party came and went
apparently nothing happened. Now it is mid-December and a kid from school, major skater jerk, decided to start talking to her. Started freakin with her head and she was falling for it. He got between
me and her so easily that she ended asking for an "open relationship" I admit I should have realized if this happened so easily than it shouldn't have happened overall from the beginning. So she break
up with me ON CHRISTMAS DAY. She said it wasn't such a big deal. She starts talking to this guy more. Me and him fought, I broke his jaw and three of his ribs and he sprained my wrist and gave me a
concussion. Now they weren't talking and me and her were just "Hi bye" type of people. JUST TO SAY THIS. She was completely against homosexuality and bisexuality, but she started talking to one of
my ex-girlfriends who was bisexual. I decided I was going to give her roses on new-years. But as I gave her to them she said no that she is with someone. I checked face book and her and my ex are
together. So now they are rubbing it in my face that they were together. It is now January 3rd. We go back to school and they broke up. Yes only three days. They blamed their breakup on me. Both of
them were screaming at me and such. May I also add that from grade five I had been psychologically bullied. People saying that I am worthless and I need to kill myself. I had resorted to self-harm and
drugs for three years. (From grade six to grade nine). So the combination of those girls screaming at me, the loss of her on Christmas day, people telling me to kill myself. I had decided I wanted to die.
So on the night of January 5th, I had taken an entire bottle of Tylenol extra strength 500mg. It was so much that I would have died within an hour of taking them. She (Hanah) was the one that saved
my life by telling my parents I had taken them. I told her that I had taken them and I was done. So I was rushed to the hospital and I was in Suicide-Watch for seventy-two hours while being
DE-intoxicated per-say. After thus I was moved to a rehabilitation center for three months. I had gotten out of the hospital after not having any contact with the outside for those three months. I had
come back and I called her immediately. To find she had moved on. She had sex with about 6 guys while I was gone not including my ex-girlfriend. So I had decided to say forget it. So an entire year
had passed. We started talking about and all she had for me was complete lies and drama. Now I am nineteen. Me and her have just came back into contact. I feel as though she might have changed,
but I am extremely afraid to be in contact with her again in the first place. What should I do? Whoever has read this entire thing. Thank you for being HQ enough to read the entire post. Sorry for such
the rant I just need to know what people suggest.
So me and that girl decided to date a little bit. She became very weird about a week after we started dating. Like for example before hand when we first started dating she would text me with a
crap load of smiles and would be so excited to talk to me. After that she hardly ever texted me and hardly told me she liked me. Now when it came up to Easter the night before she said she could
hang out with me. Then after work she said she didn't have gas to come over. Then I said I will pick her up. She said no matter what she will not let me pick her up. Then she said she had to work 6
days a week and she's so tired. So she wanted to sleep. Then about two days later she accidentally told me she went to her friends house that night. So I flipped crap and asked her mother
when she went over to her friends. Her mother said she went right after work. I once again flipped crap and cussed up a storm to her and she kept saying she wanted a break. So on FB I turned my relationship status to single. She called me at 12AM that night and
said what the fudge why did you change your relation status to single, I told her because you wanted a break. And she said she didn't mean it. The next day she asked if I wanted to go see a movie with her and I told her no I couldn't cause I was fixing my
mums car (pistons 4 and 6 aren't firing right and I can't figure out why) and she said OK, almost as if she was fine with it. Then I told her I loved her. She said "OK that's cool" and then she said "I want a break" I flipped crap again and told her she is hurting me way to
much to have a relationship right now. I'm one of those guys that is extremely emotional and I get attached to girls. I love this girl with all my heart and I cannot seem to let her go. I texted her yesterday
and asked if we will ever get back together and she said most likely but not right now. What do I do? I can't just drop her. I love her so much.
So then I checked her facebook and she said "when I'm with him I feel like I'm perfect" and I know that isn't me. She texted me and we got into a huge fight about how she crushed me. I miss her so much, what do I do?
Me and my cousin got into a huge fight. He just recently came out of the closet, but before that we would always TRY to hang out. He would always cancel and make excuses
well the other day we got into an argument and I told him I didn't consider him as a cousin. He just left for the Navy today and I feel terrible. I don't know where he is right now
so I can't write to him and I don't know what to say to him.
I had dropped out of school and my sister is a manipulative bitch, other day we got into an argument as well and she made a comment "At least I have friends and go to school!",
I've been extremely lonely and I want a girlfriend or at least friends. I suffer from severe depression and I am extremely anti-social. I don't want to get out because I'm afraid I
won't get accepted. That is one of the biggest fears that I have actually is getting accepted into the community after being bullied for so long. I've resorted to self mutilation
again. Most of the things that have gotten me away from the depression is the computer and HackForums. I've recently been banned and repfucked from HackForums and my
doctor said I need to stop getting on the computer because I am hiding from my problems. He made a very good point saying that the computer is the easiest way to cope with
depression and bullying, because if there is someone I don't like I can just block them or ignore them whereas in real life I need to deal with it. I'm seriously contemplating suicide
again. I feel as though it is the right thing to do right now, I don't feel a place for me on this earth..