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Okay, i'm fudged up here.

i'm an ex-selfharmer, currently labelled suicidal.
smoke now and again, i am not an emo, i'm just emo minded i guess.

okay you all probably understand the most popular reasons for me to be having these problems already.

okay i hate my home, its isolated and i hate my family members.
i hate school, everyone gives me suicidal comments and takes the piss.
never had a serious relationship..just messings and playarounds.

i'm bisexual, but my parents don't know it and also they probably never will.

i'm 15, 16 in march and i aint got no transport.. i'm stuck in an isolated prison with nothing to do and i feel like this life is such a freakin waste if ye could call it one.

So, isolated, depressed, miserable, bisexual, suicidal, whatever you want to put this is all off my head.

no i dont want to go back to the freakin socialists and authorities.
and i dont want to communicate with the family.

suggestions, beside suicide if even possible.

You say you're bisexual like it's a problem, it's not, not telling your parents is your choice, they don't need to know, that's your private life.

As to the depression, without a diagnosis of whether or not it's clinical or simply your state of mind, it's hard to say how to beat it.

For the moment you need to get out there and do some of the things you enjoy or even things you don't really enjoy but could do to start some social connections, maybe even find that special someone.

You may have heard this before, probably even sick of this statement: You are not alone. A lot of people our age are like you, you just need to find them, they will make great friends.

I agree with Swat Runs Train; being bisexual or gay isn't a problem, and shouldn't be treated as such. It's who you are, it would be a mistake to stop yourself from being yourself.

Therapy. Trust me it helps.

The prison feeling will end once you're past teen years and live on your own. Whatever you do, unless you're a lucky sports player, it will still be there until you're out of those years.
Until then, you can use the time you have to educate yourself. You have internet, use it to perfect yourself at some areas, and gain a general knowledge for all kinds of things. It will be of use for later years, when you won't be able to read about random stuff for hours and you'll have to work for living.

Also, try hitting the gym if possible. It will make you feel good, look good, and stronger both physically and mentally.
Don't be sad about not having a 'transport'. It's too overrated thing, trust me.

You need to start some activities that will get your mind off of suicide/self-harming.

It sounds like you don't socialize very often; try making friends, and going out. Also as Crow mentioned, exercising is a great activity to release stress, as it will also boost your confidence.

Remember, bi-sexuality is not a problem! Inform your parents, as this will make you feel better, and not having to hide something from your parents. They will love you no matter what your sexuality is. Not communicating with your family is very unhealthy.

Never result to suicide because you have a bright future ahead of you, and many more aspects of life to discover.

(02-16-2011, 06:38 AM)Crow Wrote: [ -> ]Also, try hitting the gym if possible. It will make you feel good, look good, and stronger both physically and mentally.
Don't be sad about not having a 'transport'. It's too overrated thing, trust me.

I certainly agree with this, even if you don't smash your body, going for a half hour bike ride with music in your ears can make your day turn from a bad day to a great day.